Expecting Two

I don't know if it's just me or if it's this year. I just don't know. Recently I have noticed a lot of women becoming pregnant and having babies. On another note, I cannot argue. I can't wait to have one of my own. Till then, my sister has finally became pregnant! I am more than excited. She was always told she couldn't have kids. Especially because of her having cervical cancer and polycystic ovarian syndrome. So this is a very special thing. I always told her one day she would though. I cannot wait to finally have my own little niece or nephew! And, my life long best friend is also pregnant. So I could consider myself an expecting aunt of two!

Granted

We take so much for granted. Even when we dont mean to, we do it. You don't realize what you have until you don't have it. Anything, everything we have or do. Walking, running, breathing, hearing, touch, smell, sight, just to name a few. . So I'm very thankful for what I have, all that I have. I know I may get down from time to time, but its little things like that, that I can be thankful for and know it could always be worse.

And I will find a way. .

I'm so lost. . and swarmed in this ocean of emotion. I am so unsure of myself right now in life. Which is very unlike me. You see, my life works a little funny. Just as I feel like I may feel a little level, and things just seem like they are going to be alright. . BAM! That's just when everything slides right back down to rock bottom. That's the story of my life. So I"ve learned to expect anything and to not be suprised. Time is killing me, and my family is falling in the cracks. . . I travel around trying to find where I belong. . and I will find a way. .

What a pain!

For a while now, I often get headaches. Very close to migranes (which almost more than half turn into anyway). I need to see a doctor about it. I know I need to anyway. It's just been hard fitting it in with everything else. I'm sure it has to do with looking at a computer screen, but I also dont feel like I should be having this many, and this often. Well hopefully, I can get to a doctor soon and get everything else straightened out.

6 weeks later

Time has sure passed by fast these recent 6 weeks. . again. Lot has happened in my personal life as well as in my educational life. I've moved around once again, looking for a steady job with a set schedule. In my family life, well, that's a whole other larger story. To sum up a little bit of it, my father is still having difficulty finding employment as well. My mother is not in the best of conditions and hasn't been in a very long time. As the time has passed her health has decreased dramatically. My mother has had to have 2 amputations for her fingers, and one fell off on its own due to dead skin and nerve endings making almost 3 amputations. She doesn't have diabetes, but she does have very bad circulation. This problem with her circulation has derived from systemic lupus (her main diagnosis, which can involve many health problems). Anyways, lot has gone on this past 6 weeks, as always right? But it'll all be ok, just one day at a time.

School Influence

School as been influencing me all my life from the start. It really got to me more the day I enrolled myself into college just last June. Ever since then my college has became the most important and my highest priority. But as of more recently, college has been influencing me in ways such as being more resonsible, prompt and a more set schedule on doing things. It has made me into a more responsible person than I already am. I think school is a great impact on my life and I honestly do not know where or who I would be without it. I am so proud of myself and can't wait to see what else I can conquer.

That's not yours!

I can realate to many publishers when it comes with other people taking credit for something that's not theirs. As I'm sure does many other people. I have been an active writer for about 6 or 7 years now (my writing wasn't perfect, but it was my writing nonetheless). For many years I have been trying to put a book together consisting of many poems and short stories. I have worked very hard and have put my heart, soul, and even my own life in it. If someone were to ever use one of my stories and\or poems without giving me credit, I would be furious. Well, propbably not so furious, but more of that I've been cheated and I admit I'm sure I would be pretty upset. Especially at the fact that I worked so hard, it wasn't something I stole from someone else nor did I just create it from the top of my head. I would not be very happy if this were to happen to me.

Time

Time means so much when you have a busy schedule. We all know this is some way. Some of us have two jobs and many children! In other words, we all know how valuable our time can be. For the moment I have taken a week long trip to a few cities around Texas. Being an online student is so helpful to me in cases such as this one. With the flexibility of time that gives me time to take care of other things, (when i'm not out of town more likely) work, my school work, and also helping out my mother. She requires a lot of help. But I must say I absolutely love the online schooling scene and it has been very useful to me.